My Journey Into Motherhood: From Sleepless Nights to Netflix Dates
As they say, being a mother is not easy—and I’ve truly felt that in every sense.
Motherhood is one of the most beautiful feelings in the world, but it also comes with one of the biggest responsibilities life can offer.
My journey as a mother began in 2023. The moment I heard his first cry, I felt emotions I can’t fully put into words. Tears rolled down uncontrollably as I saw him for the very first time. When the doctors brought him close and I touched his tiny cheeks, it felt surreal.
A little part of me, growing inside for months, was finally in my arms. The same little legs that kicked me day and night—keeping me awake, making me smile, and sometimes making me cry—were now right in front of me.
It was nothing short of a miracle. A moment that changed my life forever.
That’s my boy. I am a mother now.
And with that realization came a rush of thoughts:
"Okay... I need to do so many things for him—his diapers, clothes, bottles... Oh God! Everything needs to be perfect. He shouldn’t feel uncomfortable. He’s my baby after all!"
Haha... and just like that, a mother’s instinct kicked in.
The worry, the care, the constant mental to-do list—everything started playing on a loop inside me.
From that moment on, it wasn’t just about me anymore. It was about him. Always him.
The Emotional Roller Coaster
But what no one told me was that I was about to board an emotional roller coaster.
There were moments when I felt like I was breaking down as a mother. My heart felt heavy—with guilt and with joy, all at once.
The sleepless nights, the constant feeding, the overwhelming responsibility... and then came the silent fears—the thought of losing my career goals and the loneliness that crept in during those early months.
I smiled on the outside, but deep down, I was struggling. I didn’t know how to put it into words or whom to share it with. It felt like no one would truly understand what I was going through.
Balancing Career and Motherhood
Life isn’t the same anymore.
I now juggle between personal and professional responsibilities—but honestly, even my personal life has shifted completely towards the well-being and growth of my baby.
I’ve always been someone who wants to achieve something meaningful in life, professionally. I work hard for it, and I’m determined to make sure my goals are not just dreams—they’re realities I will achieve.
Motherhood has added a new layer of purpose, but it hasn’t taken away my ambition. If anything, it’s made me stronger.
During the first month of my postpartum journey, I found myself constantly thinking about work. My professional responsibilities kept pulling at me—reminding me of unfinished tasks and goals waiting on the other side.
While most people take six months or more of maternity leave, I made the decision to rejoin in just four months.
Everyone at work encouraged me to take my full leave, to rest and recover completely—but something inside me kept saying, “I need to do this. I have to get back and dive in.”
One of my biggest strengths through this entire phase has been my husband. He stood by me like a rock—offering support, encouragement, and reminding me that I wasn’t alone in this.
With him beside me, I took the leap. I rejoined work at four months postpartum, without having the slightest idea how I was going to manage everything. It honestly felt like a big experiment.
But surprisingly… things fell into place. Everything felt smoother than I had imagined. My baby too adjusted beautifully to this new routine. It felt like he was supporting me in his own little way—just like his father.
The Real Marathon Begins
And from that day till today, I’ve been juggling between work and my baby—and honestly, I’m enjoying every bit of it.
People often say life is toughest when your baby is small. But now, looking back, I’d say... it’s actually easier when they just sit in one place and all they need is milk!
Because once they start growing, walking, and running around—oh, that’s when the real marathon begins.
My legs ache from chasing him around the house... stopping him from doing this, warning him not to touch that.
And don’t even get me started on feeding him! What feels like a simple meal for us turns into a full-blown one-hour negotiation for him.
Along with planning our own meals for the day, I now have to plan a whole separate menu for this little human—who obviously can’t eat all the spicy things we love.
I’m sure every mom reading this can relate to the struggle of making something healthy, baby-friendly, and still hoping they’ll eat it without a fuss.
Honestly, I never imagined I’d become a part-time chef—constantly experimenting and inventing new baby recipes. But here I am... and I wouldn’t change it for the world. 😂❤️
Redefining Date Nights
There was a time when my husband and I would go out for movie dates, coffee dates... those carefree moments we truly cherished.
Now, our "dates" have turned into cozy couch sessions—where we wait for our little human to finally fall asleep, just so we can steal some alone time and watch a movie on Netflix (or whatever platform we’re hooked on that week).
We even text each other during the day saying, “Let’s watch this tonight… once he sleeps.” Haha… that’s our new romantic plan now.
But honestly, we’re enjoying every bit of this phase.
I absolutely love those mornings when he calls me “Mumma” and pulls my hair to wake me up. He’s officially become my living, breathing alarm clock.
With broken sleep at night and early morning wake-ups, I’ve somehow started stepping into the shoes of my father—who, no matter what, would always be up by 6 AM.
Life has changed... but in the most beautiful way possible.
Facing Judgments and Comparison
With this beautiful change comes another unexpected reality—the judgments.
People will have opinions on everything...
"Why isn’t she giving this to her baby?"
"Why not that?"
"We used to do this in our time…"
With changing generations, parenting styles have evolved too. What worked back then may not always work now. But explaining that to everyone? That’s a whole new challenge in itself.
As a mother, you not only navigate sleepless nights and endless to-do lists—you also learn to stand strong against unsolicited advice and judgments.
Because at the end of the day... no one knows your baby better than you do.
In the middle of all these societal judgments, I also found myself falling into the comparison trap.
I did too. I started comparing my baby with others…
"Why isn’t he doing this yet?"
"Why is that baby eating better, sleeping better, talking earlier?"
And slowly, this led to unnecessary negativity and self-doubt.
But over time, I’ve learned something very important: every parenting journey is different, just like every baby is unique.
There’s no single rulebook for how to do this right. Every parent finds their own way—learning, unlearning, making mistakes, and growing along the journey.
And honestly, that’s the beauty of it.
Two Years In... And Still Learning
Today, my baby is two years old… and I’m still learning, every single day.
I’m growing as a mother, as a person, and as someone who’s simply trying to do her best.
Motherhood doesn’t come with a manual—it’s a journey of love, mistakes, laughter, tears, and countless little moments that change you forever.
If you’re a parent reading this, maybe parts of my story feel familiar to you.
And if you’re just starting your journey—trust me, you’re not alone.
I’d love to share more of my parenting experiences with you all… because at the end of the day, we’re all learning, one day at a time. ❤️
Comments
Post a Comment